Week 13: Getting Worried

It’s kicking in again. It’s that same old feeling where I feel like I need 3,000 calories a day and my body doesn’t care how many Almond Joys it takes to get there. The Switch isn’t quite off, but it sure feels like my finger is poised. This is typically the point where everyone says, “No! Don’t do it, Charlie! Hang in there.” While I agree with that cheer (in fact, I’m in the front of the crowd, yelling it as loud as anyone) the fact remains that the Switch is not under our control. If it were, we wouldn’t even be here in the first place.

There’s no chart for this week because there’s no change for this week. That’s about the only silver lining. I went up two tenths of a pound, but I’ve been essentially hovering between 217 and 218 for at least three weeks.

Week 13
Starting Weight 233.0
Current Weight 217.4
Change from Last Week +0.2
Lost So Far 15.6
Pounds To Go 18.4

On the plus side, on Monday I was back in usual form. I felt pretty good and only ate about 1500 calories for the day. That’s below goal, but I’m okay with that after so, so many above-goal days recently. But today took another wrong turn, so I’m left feeling less like yesterday was “back on track” and more like “well, so much for that.”

Still, I’m hopeful. I don’t feel like I’ve gone totally off the wagon yet. But I am, as the post title says, getting worried.

6 Responses to “Week 13: Getting Worried”

Kristen said
November 17, 2010 at 10:06 am

I’m pulling for you Charlie!

Anna said
November 18, 2010 at 5:29 am

Hey Charlie

3 months in and we are all wavering. It’s hard to keep going on this calorie deficit thing. Having said that, the alternative is back to your fat back!!! You know, the bit where the top and bottom touch?? (I will never forget when you said that…lol) And all jokes aside, that isn’t funny!! Neither is it funny when my belly hits the steering wheel!!

So, my friend, lets not go back there!! My scale has also been stuck for 3 weeks. But that’s ok, cos ‘stuck’ is not ‘up’!!

This is a marathon, and its about developing new habits. So, please dont eat 3000 cals every day. You dont need to! You know that that is just gluttony! Have a cheat day every week. Plan for it. But dont fall off after we’ve come so far.

The only way is down!!! Go on MFP and read some success stories, might inspire you?

All the best

Anna 🙂

Roni said
November 18, 2010 at 6:26 am

“the Switch is not under our control”

When I read that I laughed aloud as this is where you and I disagree the most.

Even though there are factors that INFLUENCE the switch I still think you relinquish your control of it too easily.

As Anna said above, what the alternative? I will always believe you have a choice. It’s a hard choice and you may not want to make it all the time but simply throwing your hands in the air and saying it’s not in your control seems like a cop out to me.

I know you can do this, now YOU have to start to believe it too.

    Charlie said
    November 18, 2010 at 9:49 am

    After several failed attempts at replying to this, it’s become apparent that my counterpoint will be presented in the form of an entire blog post. Maybe two.

    But until then, I must go on record that I am neither giving up nor looking for a cop out. No one wants this to work more than I do.


Biz said
November 18, 2010 at 12:18 pm

Hi Chowlee! I know starting next week is going to be hard for you – especially turkey day.

Remember that Thanksgiving we had at Buryl’s house and the only thing you and I liked was the turkey? I was just telling Tony that story last night – the oyster stuffing, the yams with marshmallows – I remember us looking at each other thinking “wtf are we going to eat?!”

One day at a time . . .and don’t buy any CheezIts!

Love, your prettier sister Biz

Debbi Does Dinner Healthy said
November 18, 2010 at 4:02 pm

I GET what you mean by the switch but I also GET what Roni says. I’m more with you though, it’s almost like an unknown force that turns it on and keeps it on. Sure we have a choice and control but sometimes, no matter how hard we WANT it, it just isn’t going to happen. I totally remember when my switch was on, I’m still trying to get it to go back on and STAY on. Darn switch.