No News is No News

Now it is a strange thing, but things that are good to have and days that are good to spend are soon told about, and not much to listen to; while things that are uncomfortable, palpitating, and even gruesome, may make a good tale, and take a deal of telling anyway.

Post Slug ImageIn this passage from The Hobbit, Tolkien explains why it only took a few short paragraphs to describe an entire several-week stay in Rivendell. Bilbo, Gandalf, and the Dwarves just hung out, freeloading off the elves for at least a fortnight, and generally over-stayed their welcome. Everything was fine and nothing terribly important happened. So what was there to write about?

And this is the same situation I find myself in now. It seems like after my big announcement, talking about hair loss, and discussing some appetite problems, I’ve apparently run out of material. It’s been twenty-four days since my last post, and a period about as uneventful as a dwarven stay in The Last Homely House.

The usual cycle is: feel okay, get a chemo treatment, feel bad. Repeat as necessary. Last Friday I had my long-awaited, all-important PET scan, but the results are days away. About the only real change (from April) is that when I’m not otherwise horribly over-fatigued, I think I feel pretty good. My appetite is back to normal. Many foods I couldn’t tolerate before are now tolerable, and the previously tolerable foods are now almost normal-tasting. The numbness in my fingers is annoying but not debilitating. In short, I probably can’t complain.

I brought up this point at my regular appointment last Thursday. I told the physician’s assistant that all of this Feeling Mostly Better actually bothered me a bit. I framed this bit of irony with the way I felt when I first found handfuls of hair after shampooing. While I would guess most people find this alarming my first thought was, “Holy crap, this chemo stuff really works!” In other words, if my hair follicles are being killed then I bet other cells are also being killed.

But if after four chemo treatments I’m not feeling Awful All The Time, then I get worried. Because if I feel better, then does that mean the cancer is also feeling better too?

“That’s the stupidest thing I’ve ever heard,” the physician’s assistant explained. Okay, maybe I’m paraphrasing a little. I believe what she really said went more like this. “You don’t feel as bad as you did two months ago because you were really bleeping sick then. At that time, you felt doubly bad: because you were dealing with the effects of the illness as well as the effects of the treatment. Now it’s just the latter. And the treatment is purposefully paced in such a way so that you definitely will feel better by the time you start each cycle.”

So I suppose everything is going along just fine. The PET scan results will let us know for sure, of course, but until then there’s really not much to talk about. I’ll let Elrond know we’re done here for now. Next stop, the Misty Mountains. Hope we can avoid the goblins.

11 Responses to “No News is No News”

TexasDeb said
July 2, 2012 at 7:42 am

Charlie boy, your Physician’s Assistant deserves a medal. (probably they all do, but yours is the one who fielded your pop-fly of a comment, so let’s stick with the PA who brung us).

Fingers crossed the PET scan results don’t contradict your supposition (unless you think that might somehow make you feel better, to know that everything is not quite right – YET – so you’ll have more to write about?).

Honestly, I guess I can’t quite tell if/when people are complaining. Or not. Whatever keeps the goblins at bay. Enjoy your returning taste buds and have an extra hot dog to celebrate the 4th, because what says “Wooooo Independence!” better than tube meat!?!

Biz said
July 2, 2012 at 11:50 am

I had to laugh at Deb’s comment about tube meat! My fingers are also crossed that the results come back in your favor – I hope you enjoy your 4th! Love, you prettier sister, Biz

Jenn@slim-shoppin said
July 2, 2012 at 12:36 pm

I know it’s all going to be so good when you get your results back – but I know it’s nerve wracking too!

Love your prettier, prettier sister Jenn

Suzie said
July 2, 2012 at 12:58 pm

Hope your results come back good Charlie. Glad to hear things seem normal and that your taste buds are going back to normal. Enjoy your 4th and every day!!

Jason said
July 3, 2012 at 9:44 am

“Holy crap, this chemo stuff really works!” You are a shining light in this world.

Ben said
July 3, 2012 at 9:44 am

I am leaving you a comment, since you love comments!

Tony (Mr. Biz) said
July 3, 2012 at 12:31 pm

I too am leaving a comment.

Your prettier brother in law

Julie (Shepard) McCarty said
July 5, 2012 at 11:15 am

And I of course are your mostest prettiest and cutest and funniest friend. Plus also, fairly smart. sometimes

Leaving a comment,

P.S. Continuing to send really good thoughts your way!

Tish said
July 7, 2012 at 12:34 pm

Loved your response to the hair loss. That’s a positive response. Of course, DH, who has been losing his hair for 30 some years, can only take solace in the fact that getting older is working.
Praying for good results from the PET scan.

Vicki said
July 8, 2012 at 10:16 pm

It’s good to see you still have your sense of humor.
Praying for good test results!

Tish said
July 9, 2012 at 10:38 am

Biz scooped your good news. I’m so glad. Have a great day.